Last week I texted my best friend about an idea I had for a blog post. I wanted to interview survivors who were open and willing to tell their story about sexual violence.
The reason I share a lot of my ideas with Alexia is because I know she’ll be honest with me when she doesn’t like something. Sometimes she tells me “no” when I wanted to hear “yes”, “yes” when I wanted to hear “no”, and “lol” when I ask a question and “lol” wasn’t an answer. Long story short, she didn’t like my idea. She said that my idea sounded inauthentic and it was a little hypocritical that I’d expect other people to share their stories but push mine aside. OUCH. But she was right, in a way I WAS hiding behind other people’s stories because that feels a lot safer.
Vulnerability is a quality I admire in others. I love hearing people talk openly about their struggles, turning their mess into a message. Vulnerability is not something that comes easy or natural to most, and it certainly doesn’t come naturally to me. I have made a conscious effort over the past 3 years to open up about the things in my life that I am not proud of, the things that have hurt me, and the things that are still hurting me, in hopes that someone else can hear it and feel less alone.
If you came here looking for a crazy story, I’m sorry to disappoint you. I think every person deserves the right to share as much or as little of their unwanted sexual encounter(s) as they want. However, what I do want to share with you all is a short list of resources, self-care tips, and coping methods that helped me and that can potentially help you or a friend dealing with sexual violence of any sort.
- You have a choice in who you want to report a crime to. Seek counseling either way. Here are a list of few different Universities and the victim services/advocacy centers they have in place. MOST Universities have these as FREE resources for students. I’m only listing big universities in areas that I know I have friends in, however, other advocacy centers can easily be found by Google-ing the school’s name and typing “Victim Advocacy Center” after.
- Auburn University – https://wp.auburn.edu/healthandwellness/safe-harbor/
- University of Florida – http://www.umatter.ufl.edu/sexual_violence
- Florida State University – https://knowmore.fsu.edu
- University of Central Florida – https://letsbeclear.ucf.edu
- University of Alabama – https://www.ua.edu/campuslife/safety/sams
- University of Georgia – https://safeandsecure.uga.edu/sexual-assault/
- If you’re falling behind in school due to sexual violence, this tip ^ can help you BIG TIME. Accommodations in your classes can make a really messy time feel a lot less messy.
- Tell your close friends and family sooner than later. This is hard. You don’t need to tell all your friends and family but I think it’s best to tell the one’s who you interact with daily. This helped me in that I didn’t ALWAYS feel like I had to explain why I wasn’t acting like myself.
- Don’t immediately try to get back into the swing of things. I won’t speak for everyone but if you act like nothing happened, no matter how minor your encounter may have seemed, you’ll probably crash and burn. Take time off work, from school, from friends.
- Tackle your feelings of shame and guilt. It’s not your fault. It’s not your fault if you froze, if you trusted someone you shouldn’t have, if you were drunk, if you kissed them first. None of this makes it your fault. Period.
- Be careful with media and social media usage. Especially news reports, politics, etc. Protect your heart.
- Do something every day that makes you happy. Cheesy advice but it works. Another good thing about being open and honest with your close friends is they can help you with this.
- Go get popsicles and walk downtown
- Go pick sunflowers
- Go to the pumpkin patch
- Pet baby animals
- Go to a baseball game
- Get a tattoo
- Go eat at your favorite restaurant
- Pick more sunflowers
- Eat cotton candy
- Go to coffee shops
- Go to a football game
- Go visit your family
- Spend a day in your favorite nearby city (Atlanta ♥)
- Go to church
- Go to church? ^ Maybe not for everyone, but it was a must for me. I spent many days being angry with God. The first day I returned back to church our pastor ended his sermon with this scripture, “I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed within us.” – Romans 8:18. I didn’t think this was a coincidence.
National Resources for Sexual Assault Survivors and their Loved Ones:
https://www.rainn.org/national-resources-sexual-assault-survivors-and-their-loved-ones
National Sexual Assault Hotline: 800.656.HOPE